Phan: Happiness -Part13-

Dan's POV ---

We played Zelda for about 4 hours, constantly yelling at how slow Link was running and how annoying the controls were... But it was the nicest game of Zelda I'd ever experienced, what with Phil's innocent comments about lions and drawings... and my comments about how I'd bang Russell Brand any day.

Tired, we slumped off to bed.
"Dan, you can sleep in my bed. I'll go get a matress and sleep on the floor--"
(No, don't!)
...I'd meant to say that in my head, but the complete want inside me must've let it out.
"No, no. You need the space"
"...So I'm fat now, Mr. Lester! THIS IS WHY I SLEPT WITH YOUR BROTHER!" I poked his stomach and he just looked at me in false-sadness.
"My.. Brother! OH SARAH, HOW COULD YOU!"
"Oh, and I'm a girl too! Haha, how very insulting! Hey, you use the name Sarah a alot, is that your girlfriend's name or something?"
Phil seemed to give a look I couldn't quite work out...

Phil's POV ---

"--is that your girlfriend's name or something?"
I gave a blank look for a second, thinking about what I should say..
Did Dan know I was bi-- but swang more to the male sex and relationships?
Instead of causing more awkward silence, I said "No. I don't have a girlfriend at the moment... Why, do you?"
When I asked Dan seemed to give off the same look I did. He fell back onto my bed, moved into an upright sitting position and looked down towards the green carpet.
*mumble*
"What's that Dan..?" I moved closer to him.
*llmumble..*
"..Dan? Are you okay?" By this point he was hiding his head in his hands, so I decided to sit next to him and put my arm over his naked shoulders.
We were both dressed for bed, both bare-chested and wearing jogging bottoms. Dan must've been cold-- or crying, because he was shivering.
"Lucy." He stated.
"Lucy?"
"Yes... She was my ex.. She dumped me for--- Kissing some guy called Alex Day, but.. It was all a dare and Alex just grabbed hold of me and..."
"...he didn't.. DO anything.. did he?" By this point I was hugging him, and he was sobbing into my shoulder.
"--Nearly... But by the time he'd got my shirt off, and was working on my belt, someone said that Charlie had arrived. Alex had always had a thing for Charlie--- I think that's why he hated me so much.. still hates me.."
I was holding Dan as close as I could, worried that if I let go he'd run off and do something stupid.
"Well, Dan. It's over, it's done. It's not happening now, it's just happened. So let's not talk about it, and go to sleep..."

Dan's POV ---

I was pouring my heart out to Phil. It felt like so many burdens could finally be understood.
Phil held me as I told him all my problems, let me cry on his bare shoulder and, basically, comforted me.
Phil was the best thing that'd ever happened to me.

"Night, Dan.." he whispered into my ear.
Phil had decided I was too sad to sleep alone. He didn't trust me being by myself I guess, as I had told him on Skype about my previous attempts of self-harm.
I rolled over and looked into Phil's eyes.
"Nighty night Phil, my amazing man!"
Phil grinned at me, and it was the last thing I saw before falling into a blissful sleep.


Phil's POV ---

When I was sure Dan was asleep I just stared at him. Stared at his ruffled hair. Stared at his cute little nose. Stared at his eyelashes that tickled when I gently nudged my nose against them.
He was asleep, and so it was my only chance.
I edged closer to Daniel and laid my lips upon his. They tasted like vanilla and Pimms. I so wanted to feel him pushing back, wanting more.... but he didn't feel the way I did.

I'd just have to accept the fact that, to kiss the man I want, I had to do it while he was....

Well-- Unconcious.